...go away, please. It's supposed to rain for a few days in Montpellier, and it's seriously bringing me down. I've been awake for a few hours already because I thought I had a history class on the holocaust at 10h15...not so. It was cancelled, so I sat in bed and lingered, and thought.
I want to be really good at French by the time I leave, and I think I can do this. At the same time, though, I don't want my English to change (if that makes sense?)...I like writing, I like the way I write, and what if adjusting to French syntax and style for the semester ruins my (writing) life forever? I need to keep writing. Like I did this summer, where words were just spilling out, where thoughts and phrases and plot outlines felt effortless. I've spent a fair amount of time in my bedroom this weekend, and maybe I shouldn't be doing that. I need to be surrounding myself with friends, not vestiges of online interaction. All it does is make me think of Geneseo, of the friends and parties I have had there...and what if it's all different when I get back?
I knew I had to study abroad. For so long, I felt like there was something bigger out there for me. But what if this is...too big? Too different? What if I didn't need to change that much, after all?
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about the language - yes, it will affect your english if you are here long enough. right now i feel like getting a bit better in french was compensated with getting worse in english. can't speak either languages too well so apparently i'm illiterate now. be careful. keep a book in english to read now and then - i kept kafka but i got to busy to read him due to school work.
Sometimes your creative juices just need a break. Go out and observe life, even in the rain. Try a different form of writing, like poetry. I feel as though my creativity is at a standstill, but I know it's just from overwork and SNOW! I have a vacation coming up--I can rest, think, write, sew, paint, create. I can't wait! Keep the faith.
And "for English, press 1".
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